Erase

I've been hurt mulitiple times by him. Mentally I have thrown flags with the pain he has given.  Just then I get notified he is in the hospital for heart failure... Before this pain I was the one who rushed...

Numb

8 months and numb. I remember everything as if it was yesterday. I remember the pain as if it were yesterday. I feel numb.  No tears. No smiles. Just numb. I have a life ahead of me and it is...

It has been a while

It has been a while since I wrote... It has been a while since my parents fought.... It has been a while since I felt so hurt from his words... A few months ago the fight that changed my life...

Celebrate to not Celebrate

Tomorrow is Father's Day.... My father is a narcissist...It has been 6 months since I left the house and mentally I feel better. I was invited to join my Grandpa, uncle and dad for Father's Day. I feel awkward to...

And so their daughter broke

It has taken me hours, days and months. It has been hard to identify my feelings. Before I continue I would like to share I have been chasing my dreams and kicking ass at it too. Anyways... There have been...

I love you dad. You Broke me.

I love you. You hurt me. Remember when we won the championship game?  Remember when you choked my mom and slapped me. I still have the picture with the Winnie the Pooh and the lollipop, I was sitting on your...

Through the eyes of their daughter…

I was watching this video of a woman sharing her story as a survivor. It had me thinking... Although I feel I am in the process of healing and moving on I question myself if the verbal abuse I went...

Grieve,Support, Love,Pain,Heal …Option B

So I am supposed to be  working on my homework but I don't want to forget these thoughts... So I follow Ellen Degeneres and all the lives she has touched today she had Sheryl Sandberg share her story and her...

Of course it’s my fault

He questions why I don't contact him to say hi...he talks shit about how I distanced myself. The crazy thing...HE pushed me away. I didn't just wake up one morning and just think to distance myself from my own dad....