Erase

I've been hurt mulitiple times by him. Mentally I have thrown flags with the pain he has given.  Just then I get notified he is in the hospital for heart failure... Before this pain I was the one who rushed...

Numb

8 months and numb. I remember everything as if it was yesterday. I remember the pain as if it were yesterday. I feel numb.  No tears. No smiles. Just numb. I have a life ahead of me and it is...

It has been a while

It has been a while since I wrote... It has been a while since my parents fought.... It has been a while since I felt so hurt from his words... A few months ago the fight that changed my life...

Celebrate to not Celebrate

Tomorrow is Father's Day.... My father is a narcissist...It has been 6 months since I left the house and mentally I feel better. I was invited to join my Grandpa, uncle and dad for Father's Day. I feel awkward to...

Alcohol You took them From me

I think back. Think back to a weekend that alcohol wasn't involved. Birthday parties? Nope there was alcohol. Graduation? Alcohol. Fights Alcohol. Weekdays? Alcohol. It became a pattern to see the times they would drink these fights would get worse...

Boundaries

Some people may have a time in their life when they know they come across somebody and saying no can be hard. Especially when it's someone you love deeply. I have came to an understanding that when I love someone...

As I distance the closer it gets

I don't quite get it. This whole thing has been caused from the verbal and partial physical abuse. I reached out to God parents as they were chosen to be my safe zones for moments like these. I trust them...

Victim’s of Domestic Violence

  Do they yell at you? Do you catch yourself doing things a certain way just so they don't get mad at you? Have you noticed your family has been pushed away from you? Well just know what you are...

What Is It Going To Take

I have reached out to my moms friends and family. I've asked them if my mom ever opened up to them about my dad.  All of them have said kinda but they knew. One friend said how my mom showed...